Lost times...

Just within the past 24 hours, I've been given quite a lot of time to reflect on what has happen in my life up until now, even though I had to study for the Microeconomics test on Tuesday. Needless to say, there hasn't been much achievement that I could really be proud of. Besides education, I have never excelled in anything else. I was never good with sports (e-sports not counted), nor did I have any special talents (ea: musical instruments). Sad for me to say I am someone who is book smart and that is all to it. Sometime I really doubt how far I can go on by my own. Yes, I have a good family which have been very supportive of what I have been doing for the past two decades. Without them, I dare say I would probably have nothing at all.

Everyone probably has something which they hope they could have changed in the past, which includes me. If given that power, I would really wish I could have use all that free time I had (usually most of the time besides schooling hours) to pick up a couple of skills. I recalled that my mom had asked me before during when I was smaller, if I would like to learn piano together with my sister who was learning it at that time and I said NO. Man, if I managed to travel back in time, I would really smack that younger me at the back of the head nicely for saying that. Even more so, I hated myself for never actually using all that time I had for doing any quality work. I remembered that up until form 5, I usually had all the time in the world to do something meaningful. The only classes I took were the tuition classes which I would say was a bloody waste of time.

I had always wanted more out of my life but sadly, it has been a very dull one. If only I did not have all this college course work, I would probably be going off to learn something that I actually like. Japanese is one of them, and possibly also learning the piano (I don't give a damn if anyone think pianos are only for girls). Recently, I have had the time to talk with a friend from college, name Hui Yi and well she have the above mentioned skills which I would like to own. I really envy her for that very very much. ( I probably shouldn't be talking so much about a girl if I still want my ass to remain intact. Haha joking ne! =P) Should probably get her to give me lessons. LoL!

It was not that I did not give a try at learning the Japanese language though. Only thing is that it just doesn't feel the same without the pressure of someone actually guiding you. Also noted is the fact that since it is a language, I believe the only way that I can actually improve is by practicing it with someone. Not only that, after a whole day of classes and assignments, it is very hard to motivate myself to go cram even more things into this tiny brain of mine. The incentive is just not there, you know. Some people would probably think that this is just an excuse and well, it is. I wouldn't say I am the most hardworking person around as I know how I myself works. Forcing just does not help.

As the title of my last post stated, I really need a break, not just a day off, but more than that, what I need is for all these thoughts to just leave me alone. Most of the time, these thoughts brings along guilt and depression which really spoils my mood to even take a nice break.

9Okie enough of that sad post, as some of you who have been paying attention to the chatbox might know, I am going to get a Playstation 3 soon. Woot for me I would say. I know a few of my "buddies" would already have started planning some kind of ambush on me, kidnapping me and possibly blackmailing to get that Ps3. The only thing reply in return instead is "Pry it from my cold, dead hands if you can". *I do not in anyway mean that I want to be murdered by someone, please do not take it seriously and have a nice day.*

I am planning to get two games, one of them which is definitely Devil May Cry 4 and the other, I am still having a lot of thoughts on what I should get. There are a few choices (feel free to drop me a comment):

1) Resistance: Fall of Man
2) Assassin's Creed
3) Burnout Paradise
4) Heavenly Sword
5) Uncharted: Drake's Fortune
6) Ratchet and Clank: Tools of Destruction
7) I do not remember

Yeah well, that's about it for this post I guess. Good Evening and Good Bye!

Gimme a break----- literally, i need one

Yes, I know it has been forever since I have written a decent post. Unlike Ben, I can't blog about anything and everything. Maybe that is why he is doing journalism and I am not. =P

This has been one heck of a week once more. 6 days of class including today's Calculus 2 replacement class. The day started out with all my daily routine over and over again. Sometime I can't help but feel dejavu-ish that every single day I am doing the same thing repeatedly. I forgot today is a Saturday, and well I left home at about the same time I usually do but reached at about 7 am. 1 hour before my class started, I almost felt like slapping the back of my head as I could have slept for an extra half an hour today. Class was alright and surprisingly I did not feel tired at all although I have only been sleeping for 6-7 hours per day for the past week.

To think that I only have one day off tomorrow, (and even then I have to study for next week's Micro test) is really sad and depressing. I can foresee already what I will be doing for the next couple of weeks and well it just adds to the already solemn mood in me. I forgot whether it was during this week (or maybe last week) that my application to Wichita State University is accepted. I would say they are very efficient unlike the other 2. Talking about the others, the admission office at UNL is having a slight problem with my application. Apparently, they need a Statement of Support from me that has the values return in but I am quite sure that I have written in all the necessary info for them before sending it. Troublesome lar~ The University of Wisconsin- Madison on the other hand is the one which has no updates or whatsoever on my application. Till date, I have only received one email from them. Whats even more annoying is that they actually sent it to my alternate email address instead of my preferred one. =.="

Besides studies, this week I did not really have much activities. The only time I spent with my girlfriend, besides the time sending her back from her University, is probably going to the Tian Hou Gong Temple yesterday. My girlfriend wanted to go pray and ask about some stuff so I naturally accompanied her and at the same time prayed together-gether. It is kinda ironic though as I usually do not go to the temple besides during the Chinese New Year, but I only went there the day after CNY officially ended. I am unsure of whether I have been to that place or not, I've heard of the place numerous time but have no fond memory of ever being there.

Let's see what else, err yeah, Game Developer's Conference was recently held, one of those big events in the gaming industry. A number of sequels were announced and quite a number of it are actually games that I have finished playing. Gears of War 2 definitely pique my interest, although the teaser trailer was just showing off Marcus Fenix vs-ing a Locust, what is more important is the fact that they will be chainsaw counter in the sequel (I hate it when the one getting chainsawed is my character instead). One word, "Awesome". In the tech demo we can see that there is an upgrade to what the engine could do and all. The environment are destructible, the water ripples like it is supposed to, and the blob of ........what the, MEAT?!? jiggles like its suppose to?? Sadly, for now the game is only announced for the 360 (XBOX)





Other game sequels announced are like Portal 2, the game with the AI which IMO is not that good in persuading a person. "THE CAKE IS A LIE!" or maybe not. The concept behind the gameplay is really creative and also unique. Something which is very rare in the gaming world right now. The part I love the most about the game is probably the credits, the AI actually sang the song. LoL, here's the video clip. P.S. If you have the time go look up its lyrics.



Okie, I'm bored of writing my post already. Time to stop now. *Yawns*

Crysis- Koreans, Aliens.... and now water gun fights......

Just posting this because I am too lazy to write an entire post.



Here is a trailer of some guy messing with the Crysis engine. This trailer actually made me giggle like a 3 year old.

Short Break

I apologize that I haven't been maintaining my blog for quite some time. I was really busy (actually still is, only less). All three universities applications are done and that is one heck of a burden off my back. Probably will receive the admission decision when it is nearing the finals for the 1st semester, so I am not gonna stress myself over whether I will be accepted or not.

Oh yeah, I will not be giving anymore summaries on the Bleach episodes. I figure that if you are like me and watching the anime, you would most likely be downloading the episode and seeing it for yourself, rather than read from somebody's blog about what is unfolding in the world of Shinigamis and Hollows.

Recently besides watching Bleach and Naruto, I have also started watching Family Guy. They are surprisingly alike The Simpsons, for example both are a family of five(excluding Brian the dog). Peter and Homer are probably the biggest jerk in their own world. Both Stewie and Maggie has an IQ which you will never find in a baby their age. Another thing is that they both featured a lot of really funny antics.

Oh yeah before I forget. My desktop's motherboard is kinda screwed up and I would need to take it back to Low Yat to claim my warranty. It is really troublesome that I have to go all the way there. For some reason, I dislike people over at the Low Yat and Sungai Wang area. People who work in Low Yat are really bad mannered, and occasionally you will get the feeling that people there are just interested to serve you when you have something to buy. I am not just making any kind of speculation, as I have proof to support my statement. About a month or two ago, I went and claim the warranty for my sister's flashdrive from the shop I got it from. The dick head which "served" me, speaks and act as if I was responsible for his parent's death or something similar to that. On the other hand, the reason I dislike Sg. Wang is because the place is infested with seafood. Once again, this species of human has a tendency to speak and act like they own the place.

Recently, I have also been picking up a lot of hobby which I abandoned when I was younger. I have learned to appreciate reading more nowadays, although I must admit that not all the books I read are study related. I have finished reading the first Diablo novel "Birthright", and has started on the second entitled "Diablo: The Sin War, Scales of the Serpent". Another more unique hobby is assembling Jigsaw Puzzle. The other day, me and my girlfriend went and bought a Kingdom Hearts Jigsaw Puzzle which contains 1000 pieces. Me and my girlfriend have started working on it since yesterday and our progress is shown in the picture. Hopefully I can get the puzzle done before my break ends.